Aww man, today is going to be a hard day. Yesterday I let my ex use my laptop to get music off it. Well, I'm getting it back today and every time I spend time with her now I feel really down and bad... like it was my falt (and it was). I mean it hurts to see her, talk with her, everything. One reason we broke-up was that I was not talking to her, the way she wanted me to talk to her... and I would give up everything just to do that and have her back in my life. She is having on and off moods with me, which is ticking me off alot lately... she will be nice to me for one day, and mean to me for a week. She then, started to smoke again, which almost drove me to cut my self... because she told me she was off, and I stopped cutting for her.... now this? I mean i'm clueless. I'm really trying to talk to her now... which is not helping because she gets mad when I tell her stuff that I want to happen, and she saids its over... so I don't know what I'm doing anymore. This would have to be a lame place to stop, but now i'm just talking out my ass.